Sign of Relief.... Rest Chill Rest

I have decided to tender my resignation after a 3-month stint with the employer today. A funny comment from my supervisor, "Personally, if I was you, I would do so too.... as there is nothing for you to gain". I am also relieved to know that my 2 best-abled staff are also planning to leave subsequently, and that's truly a good sign for me to cut my losses today. Thus it is time to relax and think of nothing else. Time for Rest, Chill, Rest.

For further plans, I will think about it next Monday yo :)

More importantly, there is an important lesson from one of my subordinate, who is a Chinese Permanent Resident of Singapore. She will be migrating to Canada with her family, and I do respect her, because neither her nor her family have not been there before. Eleven years ago, she did not travel to Singapore before too, when she had decided to migrate here. That is something that Singaporeans do not have the courage, at least, not without going through a try-out phase. We have been too risk adverse, and perhaps, we have missed out the fun in life, haven't we? For that, I respect my subordinate!

Ice Cream is Happy Food

The day I am waiting for is coming, I am very happy, but at the same time, I must learn to keep my cool. That's important. Things have been really busy over the last few days, so the next 8 hours of tomorrow, I will try my best to be goody goody, and accept what it comes. And of course, stop any excessive thinking now. And I am eating ice-cream to cool down. A good friend said something that is so right "Ice Cream is Happy Food"

New week, New Hope

I am waiting for this Friday to tender my resignation. Finally it is here, and my decision has been made quite a while ago, and it will not change, I am sure. Meanwhile, working life is quite meaningless when there is not much to be done here. The main thing is that we have confidence in ourselves and our future. :P

Friday seems so long, but I know it will come finally.... sometimes, things just cannot be rush. Sunny hopes will come soon yo!

Enjoying to Relax..... Seriously

It has been a good weekend.

I have to proclaim that I have been able to take things more lightly recently. Yes, there are occasions that I have to be excited and there are moments of anxiety, we cannot avoid them, but we have to remind ourselves that they are part of our lives, and we have to accept them gracefully. When there is a moment of unhappiness, let it come if it is not worth the effort to avoid it. It will pass anyway, and if the outcome is not that detrimental, we just accept it gracefully. It is just part of our life, and we cannot escape it.

Today, I watched my favourite series Grey's anatomy, and I went for Bukit Timah hiking, jogging and grocery shopping at Fairprice Finest. It has been a fun day.... seriously. :)

I am on MC today

Physically, I was not feeling well today. Looks like I have to watch my diet today. Mentally, I am relaxed and happy to have a day of rest. I did not do anything much, or eat anything special, and it was just another normal day. I felt that as we grow older, our food intake really determines our health, and this is something we can control. For instance, the fibre and calcium we take per day. Well, for me, I tried to take more vegetables and fruits, as these are not really my favorites since young. However, over the years, you don't have a choice. Thus, going forward, I shall pay more attention to my food and exercise. Hmmmmm.....can I still take my junk food? Chips?

(The attached is my favourite hotdog from Copenhagen streets)

Good & Comfortable

In life, we set targets sub-conciously. Everyone of us wants a good and comfortable level but the extent of the goodness and comfort level differs. It is just like filling up a big box with your hopes comparing to filling up a small one. Have we been idealistic in always hoping for the best, and have we been asking for a flawless path? If so, perhaps, that explains our frustration. I have read the above many times, but yet, it is not easy to remember that. Perhaps next time when we are frustrated, we should bring ourselves back to reality, that perhaps the definition of "good and comfortable" life needs to be adjusted.

Yes, this is my second entry of the day but I can't help it :)

Unfortunate People Vs "Unfortunate" People

I felt bad for a friend who was dismissed without a valid reason. I felt that she is a capable lady, but it is quite unfortunate that she has a sour and incapable boss. Management of bosses is an important skill, but not easy. Sometimes, it is not worth the effort at all. Ultimately, bosses are also paid to work and defend their own interests. Thus, before we think we want to confide in our bosses (as if we trust them), do think again!

I think, the termination of the above friend's job is unfortunate. Which is worse? Having a boss that you cannot trust, or leaving the job without a job? In this friend's case, I suppose the loss is being asked to leave, which has a "face" issue. Otherwise, she has nothing to lose.

Essentially, the issue here is "pride". Is she really unfortunate? If we take away the "pride" issue, then the appropriate word should just be "unlucky". After all, it may still be a fortunate thing not to work under someone you cannot trust.

To this good friend of mine, move ahead, put the past behind you, take a rest, and you will realise that this is just another tiny episode of your life. It may seems easy for one to say so, I know, but then, that's the lesson of "recovery" and "acceptance".

Plans & Fun & Freedom

Over the last 4 days, what have I done? Nothing serious, nothing much either. Well, I supposed recently I have been taking life quite easy, and seriously, I did not do anything too serious. :) And the worst thing, I am almost trapped in the Fluff Race under the facebook.com. Hehehe

As for planning, I am also beginning to take one thing at a time, rather than planning too far ahead. Otherwise, I will fall in the "over-think" trap / misery again.

Overall, I have been happy, and suddenly I am hungry (for food and freedom).

Bukit Timah Hill

Hurray, I have climbed the highest hill in Singapore :) It took the 5 of us 100 minutes to walk up and down the hill (plus a detour for the path guide in the woods). It was inspiring and refreshing. Something new, and something different. Good for the body, soul and spirit definitely and it is certainly a good start for the weekend. Thereafter a feast at my "hometown" - ABC market, for my favourite wan ton noodles :)

To my friends out there, I would like to share this re-make of 1985 old song by 徳永英明 恋におちて-Fall in Love-

Sunny Days

I seldom like sunny days except during suntanning moments. Today, it is an exception. I was very encouraged this morning, because the sun is shining and the sky is bright, as compared to the past few days. It brings positivity in life, and then the day appears on a positive note.

It is still sunny and hot now, in the mid afternoon, so I just brought my sandwich and soup from Pret Manger, and I am enjoying some peace with the food in office :)

Rainy Day Rainy Day

It is rainy outside, and I am busy working for ridiculous purpose (busy without a mind). Yesterday, a close friend commented that my blog is all about my feelings on work. This blog was meant as a declaration of my planned actions so as to give me more courage to move ahead. Unconciously, it turned out that it reflected my work life only or is my life only revolving work? If the latter is true, which I am quite sure, then it is time to re-adjust my life. Well, at least I have made plans already..... so now is for my re-adjustment and patience skills to kick in.

:)

Luxurious Time

I have recently read a few blogs. These days, I can see that many are working for so many hours outside their official hours, and they worked professionally, leaving very little time for their own. Yet, I hardly see people complaining about the little time they have for their own. This seems to be a trend, and time of our own seems luxurious compared to these people.

For the last 2 hours, I was actually preparing for an interview on Tuesday. This is the first time, I am taking a technical time for an analyst job. So that's kind of new, challenging, and ?stressful? since I have not taken a technical test before. I think ultimately, I do not want to take it too stressfully, since the worst outcome is, I do not get this job :) Never mind, I will just treat it as an experience.

Today is a rainy and crowdy sunday, but I am still going for my run shortly and chill for the rest of the day.

(The picture shown is Tivoli, Copenhagen, one of the world's oldest theme park)

TGIF :) ..... yhew yhew yhew

Yeah, a moment everyone loves, and because it is the furthest day from Monday too. I will make sure I will enjoy every moment, as usual, and have share of sports and exercise too. Even the air smells fresher :P

On myself, I have been recovering well from the anxiety and tiredness. Trying to cool down my thoughts and trying to relax ..... so things are going fine.

I just have nice sushi buffet lunch at Honjin, Tanjong Pagar, and yeah, it's a good one! I look forward to going there again!

Looking forward to the weekend.....

Thursdays mornings smell good! Always, as it is a sign that tomorrow is TGIF and weekends will be here again. This cheers my mood immediately and you can see my smile now. I am also thinking of new receipe to test during this weekend. I will put up on the blog if it is successful.

Otherwise, I am recovering for those anxiety breakdown, slowly, but better late than never. Let's all look forward to this weekend folks!

When one door closes, another will open .....

Today I was supposed to be sad, as headhunters told me that I was turned down for 2 jobs. However, I was also glad that they still continue to give me opportunities as they told me they have gotten fairly good feedback from their clients, and I didn't get it because of un-suitability of the job. Given my usual self, I was disappointed, but this time, just a very short while. Anyway, if it is not suitable, then why continue? Move On, Move On yo!

Oh, I have a very good chat with a long time colleague, and we became closer friends now. That I am happy as I have another good friend. There is something that he reminded me again......"If you find that the place is not the place which you can station your flag for long term, then it is better to cut loss".

I agree, and as per my title, if one door closes, another will open..... Just don't think too much neh :)

Is there a problem afterall?

(This is the first time, I update this blog in office)

Sometimes, we all have problems. Sometimes, these problems are not problems if they are minor ones and can disappear given time. However, I realise that I have the tendency to aggravate these kind of minor problems to big ones and sometimes, with too much negativism, such that the problems may become uncontrollable. Thus, I should programme in my mind the following:

1. In terms of problem solving, go back to basics, and let big problems become small ones, and small ones to disappear.
2. When we knew what are the worst outcomes for an incident, that should be the ultimate, and it not necessarily will happen at all. Feel better, instead.
3. My main aim is to get a better job and be a better person.

So the above 3 should be my motto for the rest of this year, maybe.....and hopefully, it stays.