Tokyo, I hope to be there......

Tokyo has a special place in my heart. I like Disneyland since 14, but that's due to my childlike-ness and idealistic nature. Over the last 8 years, I have travelled to Tokyo over 10 times, and each time, it touches me. The place may be fun, but it has a deeper meaning. I like the culture, the style and my friends there. It has 2 faces: a very materialistic look and a very serenity feel. Both fits me well, especially the latter. I love my country-side visits during the different seasons, the stay at Kita-Ayase, the seasonal fruits and sweets, and the very unique Tokyo aroma..... I always can recognise that smell. Suddenly, I wonder if that is home-sick-ness?

I don't know why. My heart is there, I know. So is my good friend's. :)

(Today is Sunday, I will be at home, and I am going for my run and swim now, thereafter I will have my sandwich dinner. I got raisins bread, ham, bacon, egg, tomatos.... yum yum)

Rest rest rest!

The week has been a fast one. I am still trying to cope with slowly down my pace for the time being and cooling down from the anxiety of job search and work stress. Definitely, it is much better than the week before, and I am happy so long it is the road to recovery.

In life, we cannot rush things or expect everything in our favor. Sometimes, we are just too spoilt because we have been blessed with a rather smooth journey most of the time. So we have to learn to accept unpleasant happenings will definitely happen sometimes. In addition, we have to keep reminding ourselves that we must not make the same mistakes, even though it always happens unintentionally. Never mind the above, so long, we remain confident and patient in our pursuit in life.

Yhew, it is weekend. I will take a good break and rest at home. I will also do some sports too :) Saturdays are such a luxury and I love it!

It is time for a break.......

My decision has been made, I should be relieved, but I am still not quite there yet. Well, it takes time.

I went for an interview today. The contents of the interview were not important, and I am not too concern of the outcome of this one. After the interview, I really felt that I was very tired, physically and mentally. Chasing for interviews at this stage and facing those idiots at working place were not bringing me anywhere these two months, but worn my soul slowly.

Yes, I will slow down my pace where job search is concerned, and wait patiently for the day for me to leave the working place. Suddenly, I felt...... my good friends are right, I need a long break.

When a decision has been made..... Yeah!

As my last post, when a decision is made, the sky is clear. Yes, the happenings today affirmed my decision, and there should be no turning back. The road, one month ahead, should be simple now. Back to basics, and stay a low profile. This decision seems so difficult, but yet still so easy. I am relieved, and very happy with the support and encouragement from so many wonderful friends around me. I felt shi-a-wa-se (so fortunate) neh :) Whatever happens in the next month will not change my mind now, and right now, I just have to look ahead.

Many friends have given me good and simple advice, and that changes things from complicated to simple. Hontoni hontoni totemo arigato, folks!

I proclaim that days of miseries are over.... at last!

(And the bad bad luck is gone ......)

Summary of Advice from Friends

I was kind of helpless and lost last few days. But I am very fortunate to have good advice from friends: 1. There is nothing you can do for things you cannot control. Perhaps, just endure and stay a low profile. Having a high profile may jeopardise things. 2. You need not speak badly of people (in interviews) but you need to give credit to them too, if possible. 3. You just have to regain confidence. Do not over-think!

Just few simple words, now the sky is clear!

YES! A "Miserable" Day Is Over

Since yesterday night, I knew that today was gonna be a very difficult day. However, I chose to ignore it yesterday night, even refusing to do much mental preparation, like I would used to. In addition, I just reminded myself that today is "just another 8 hours in office, so it should pass very fast". Gladly to say, today has came and gone. Yes, I do have disappointment and frustration, but it is finally over, and I thought it went through smooth enough without much miseries or pain as people would expect. Yes, I got my migraine, but no, I am not affected. I knew I would normally would usually, but this time, I took control of my thoughts.

For that, I gave a pat to myself. To all my friends out there, I promise that I will take care of myself :)

Maze.....again?

Today, I felt that I was lost in a maze. Well, then the solution has to be how to walk out of the maze. It may be a long, deep maze and everyone yearns for a map to get out, or some magic carpet to escape. In reality, to get out of the maze, I just have to walk out by myself, whether I are smart or not. There may be help along the way, and of course, I am very lucky to have so many support from my wonderful pals out there, but walking out (smartly) ultimately relies mainly on myself. Eventually, I know I will walk out, so while walking out, I am learning the lessons along the way, picking up bits and pieces. And I shall take this opportunity during the journey to be a stronger person.

"The lessons will keep repeating itself until it is learnt"